Today is the Day

I woke up this morning and am deciding that today is the day. I think I have finally had enough! I have reached the point where I realize it is only up to me. I am the one who needs to do the work and I can't expect others to do it for me or to be extra considerate or even give a crap about what I am doing. I don't know why I have always expected people to act human lol have manners and Be somewhat kind of nature. These are lofty expectations rarely met. Sad but true. So.... I need to have less or no expectations of people or of situations. This makes things much easier and just well bare able overall. The next thing I need to do is Get my ass moving! lol I have now several tools at my disposal. However, I am basically lazy... I am going to return to a few decades ago...when remotes were not around. When I read more books. When I parked further away and walked to the door of a store...instead of parking in the lobby lol. I need to De-Technify ( look it up I am sure this IS a werd LOL ) myself in order to get back to the center, the core and reach into the goey center and turn that into a somewhat harder more carefree and healthy center :)  I have done  some exercise and some yoga and some treading....but for 10 to 15 mins each time because I am so out of shape....is NOT getting it done. The length in between each event also has to become more frequent. I start things and give up rather quickly thinking that ehhhh Im fine...the reality is I am not fine. The embarrassing list of things I cant do for someone my age has now become more than I can bare. I am not that old and yet I find myself saying well When I was younger I used to have a Bangin... LOL I wont finish this but you get the idea. It is a bit narcissistic but there were quit a few things that USED to be bangin on me lol Well this year I am going to be 40! and instead of crawling into a hole, I would like to make this next decade the best I can. Before everything lowers and Changes lol I want to be 40 and fabulous so I will have to start now :) cuz its gonna be a looooonnnng road ahead :) wish me luck!!
                                                     X0's
                                                               ~Annie~

Good Morning Tuesday :)

It is Brrrr cold here in Northern Va. I love the colder weather, it does not love me though lol. My sweety does not tolerate the cold well either. However, to me cold signals the start of the holidays. I LOVE the holidays. They seem to make most people a bit more jolly and a little less ummmmm...mean yes mean is the word I will use. Yesterday I took down my Halloween decorations and am getting ready to put up some fall/ thanksgiving ones. Then it will be christmas!!! Which is my favorite I think. The year is coming to a rapid close...this time last year I was just getting out of the hospital...coming home to an empty house and being very sick. This year is a far cry from that and I am not even living in the same state! Not that that is better lol its worse really. I would rather be back in Delaware. Sigh...soon hopefully.
    I am starting my day with some tea...chocolate pureh.....LOVE this one from Numi ( .com). Then I am going to get my shower and do some yoga. Later on we will be getting ready to take our trip to New york to see my family this weekend. That will be interesting and hopefully fun and uneventful. This will be our last holiday all together in my parents house. So it will be nostalgic for me as well. Ok...gonna get this day started. I hope all of you have a wonderful, productive and peaceful day :) X0's
                                                                                                                        ~Annie~